Giving In

On the edge of sanity
Peering down below
If only I could jump
But I just can’t take the leap
Want to loose it all
And stop caring all of this
If only I were more selfish
I could follow through
And just take the plunge
I guess it is a good thing
That I am keeping my balance through all this
But all I really want to do
Is break down
And give in

I will not be ruled
The torture ends today
I don’t really care
What other people say
My life is mine to live
And I won’t give it up
That you controlled me so long
Is nothing but pure luck

Chaos is taking over me
Forget the way things were
Everything is changing
Though life is still a blur
Through with being sweet and kind
It doesn’t matter to me anymore
Standing here I realize
You don’t rule the things I do
I wasn’t meant
To live my life for you

I will not be ruled
The torture ends today
I don’t really care
What other people say
My life is mine to live
And I won’t give it up
That you controlled me so long
Is nothing but pure luck

Silently I cry at night
Though I’m not sure why
The tears just keep leaking
From my blue green eyes
All the troubles I go through
Don’t seem to matter much to you
It is just now is sinking in
That I don’t have to do
Anything that I don’t want to do
This will be the last time
You can feel in charge
All those silent tears
Will no longer fall


I will not be ruled
The torture ends today
I don’t really care
What other people say
My life is mine to live
And I won’t give it up
That you controlled me so long
Is nothing but pure luck

Don’t think you own me when you don’t
No more lies, they won’t work this time
I won’t believe them, you can’t control my mind