So Many

So many years of promises being broken
So many secrets remain yet unspoken
So many tears cried over the stupidest things
Now tears are not shed so I can avoid the shame
So many years being treated like dirt
Stepped on and made to believe I was no good
Then told I was the hope of our family
Go to college, get the job they chose for me
Nothing seems to be up to me

So many years of things left unsaid
So many silent nights
Crying myself to sleep in my bed
Not knowing where to turn
Who’s hand to hold on to
What way to go or who to be
Nothing seems real
I can’t wait to get free

No one believes when I say I’m upset
Put me down, say that I’ve overreacted
They never have listened to anything I said
They wonder why I’m so quiet
Why I never do no wrong
It’s because I was made
To believe I could do no harm
Couldn’t tell people what I thought
Couldn’t speak my mind
All I want to do now
Is get on with my life

So many years of things left unsaid
So many silent nights
Crying myself to sleep in my bed
Not knowing where to turn
Who’s hand to hold on to
What way to go or who to be
Nothing seems real
I can’t wait to get free

You tell me not to fear
That everything is ok
But when you live for someone else
You are dying everyday